Not deserving happiness
Monday, Nov. 24, 2003 at 4:19 pm
I'm hungry, I like the feeling of being hungry, so why do I usually ruin it by eating? Bizarre, I don't understand myself. Hmm maybe it's because I feel like I don't deserve to like or enjoy anything. I hate the feeling after I've eaten it makes me so miserable and I feel so totally useless. So maybe I eat to make myself feel like that because I don't deserve to be happy. I don't know!! Just a random thought that I had.b/fast: black coffee, 1/2 can grapefruit
mid morning: black coffee
lunch: an apple